First, let me give you a little background information about me. I am terrified of flying, I have only flown once in my life and it was an hour flight when I was 27 years old and it wasn't because I wanted to. My friend didn't tell me we were flying until she had already made all the arrangements and still not until a couple of weeks before we left (she knew I would freak out if she told me before). I have never had the desire to go on a mission trip or anywhere in the world where I would have to fly to get there. I just believed that God would never call me to go on the mission field because it didn't matter because I was dead set that I would never go. I loved to hear people's stories about what God did on the mission field but I was sure I would never be sharing those stories.
Several months ago, God had really been dealing with me and I had begin to pray that God would use me to be a servant for him. I prayed that God would allow me to be available to be used however he wanted to use me, whatever it might be (be careful when you pray that prayer and be ready to do what God ask you to do). I love the song by Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir "Use Me" (I love this video with the song). I prayed everyday for about a week or 2 and my prayer was "Lord if you can use anything you can use me, allow me to be available to be used however you see fit"
Well after about 2 weeks of this I was at a Christmas get together for the college and career at our church, I don't usually go to that class or to the outings because they are all so much younger than me but they still invite me to all the stuff and this one was at Phillip & Carey's house so I thought I would go hang out. My friend Amanda, who is actually older than me :), was talking about going to Nepal on a mission trip this summer and how she thought it would be cool if the college and career class went. Well we got to talking and I asked her about the flight (she knows I don't like flying either) and she hesitated and said "ummm..about 16 maybe a little more. Well I don't know what I was even asking for because I wasn't about to go on another hour flight, much less a 16 hour or longer flight.
I remember going home that night and saying the same prayer I had been saying for the last couple of weeks and singing the same song and I couldn't get Nepal out of my mind. I remember saying no way that is not going to happen. I am not going to Nepal, I don't want to and I am not about to get on a plane for that long. So the next day, said the same prayer except this time the verse popped in my head "Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” Matthew 28:19-20. Still I was like no I can't do this I am scared & then it was like God spoke to me as plain as day and said, "hey you have been praying for me to use you GO" wow, seriously?!?! Well the more I prayed and tried to shake it off the more God was saying GO!! The last part of that verse keeps me from being totally scared out of my mind "And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age"!! That is so comforting for me to know, that no matter how scared or worried I may be, that when I am doing what God has called me to do then He will be with me always!!
So this summer I will be going to Dharan, Nepal for 10 days, I am a little nervous but I am extremely excited to see what God is going to do in my life and through me in Nepal!!
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